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I'm an old man now
Almost 30 years old and now receiving handouts
I've got nothing really planned out
I'm an underground Soundcloud legend
I'm happy how it panned out
Made lifelong friends
Not chasing trends
This is what helped me to stand out
RIP Soundcloud
It's that damn TikTok, man
And it's that damn clout
Two sides to every story I don't wanna hear them
Rather be stubborn make my own events up
Left for dead in the desert seen oasis in your arms
What a waste no regard
In the waves of the sand no tree but I taste the cracks in your palm
Pain course through them all carry it like anchors in a sea of regret
Day of defeat marked on my calendar
So excited I been counting every minute every hour
I'm so scared of dying all alone
Rich or poor no one knows from your skeleton
Decompose decompress what a mess
Mangled by your words in a vacuum yeah I heard what you said
I don't mean no disrespect make you undress the wounds that you left
Don't address the trauma that you dealt
Don't forgive don't forget everyone has got a price
But I'm inexpensive
Shield is not included so I'll never be defensive
What a great purchase now I'll always be indebted
Don't forget to leave a message
I don't know what had happened to me
Reminiscing all the times where I'm acting too deep
Only thing mattered was the piece of paper when I get out
Or whether if I believe in a god or if I sense me a doubt
Swapping a different bubble while I'm not feeling appreciative
Just like the old one but feels different enough to differentiate it
Does it instantiate the things I wanna do while I still breathe?
Maybe it's just the system or my mindset; whatever my will leaves
I don't write as a native 'cause it just feels so escaping
Not until my cadence's waking its inner mind, I'm making—
A sense without a translation, no spit and shine but I'm aching
That all the stupid hating will ruin my training
Painting the white tape in the color of candy canes, eh
Or feel profane of things in my head that I don't attain but
Hey, it's considered a bad habit and I'm the only one to blame
I eat shit up like fast food, it feels so convenient this way
I just waste my time
Spend every night getting high
I know why
I just find
Eyes tantalized
Feeble mind
Always telling lies
Why even try
Silly little guy
Mom called me complacent
Wonder where my days went
Waking up faded
I'm adjacent
Chasing my tail inside this circle
Where did the earth go
Lighting up quick then burn slow