Derealization

I didn't mean to scare you

How'd you know

I could never live without you

strip away the irony

Sincerely hopeless now

Why don't you hurt like I do

If pain is all the same

I wanted to be happy

But I'm changing my ways

Everything's absurd

Nothing feels the same

Reality behind the curtain

never went away I'm certain

I used to cry, now I'm standing still

Don't wanna hate myself this much

I can't even feel your touch

You still wonder why I don't feel real

Laying here between your arms

I could never feel harm

Tears like stone, forever

Do I ever pull at the tether

I'll take my time

You would even care

Making up the same lie

I could never bear the

Pain like you do

Is loving me strange

I wanted to be happy

something got in the way

And now I'm shaky and I'm bored

I guess I wanted more

Reality behind the curtain

Never went away I'm certain

I'll never open my blinds anymore

I'm standing still, I'm standing still

I don't talk to my friends, not a word

I'm standing still

I'm standing still

When I am this afraid

I used to wonder why I don't feel real

Don't wanna hate myself this much

I can't even feel your touch

You still wonder why I don't feel real

Don't wanna hate myself this much

I can't even feel your touch

You still wonder why I don't feel real