Penitence

Lately I think

I was over

Timing my chest

Beating slower

Like the clouds

The colour of them

Fading out

Fading out

Oh, the heavy

Heart I carried

Went over your head

And over mine

(Regret)

I counted the days she left like a prisoner

Etching markings on my skin with an old knife

Scratching (forget)

You see, I wanted the physical

Too much, the psychological

And yet, no matter how hard I dug

I still could not match that pain (regret)

I longed for reason, I sung with demons

I sat in a dark dusty room

Barely moving, breathing (forget)

I chewed through my own umbilical cord

Attached to her navel

I wanted to be separate

Ooh

Oh, I think my mind is leaking

Ooh

Solitude is so depleting

I did it to myself

I know that you are faithful

I did it for my health

How come I'm still unstable?

I've fallen far from hell

A suicidal angel

Yes, lost my wings and fell

Falling so ungraceful

Banished into hell

I wish that I could stop crying

But they say that the body is 70 percent water

I feel like I must've reduced mine by a considerable fraction

Newton's third theory states that

For every action there must an equal and opposite counter-reaction

And so I retraced my steps

And tried to find reason in the arms of my demons

'Cause I can't find healing if I can't find meaning

A conundrum leaning on my dumb, numb feelings

Haven't used high beaming when I hung from the ceiling

When I run from demons that are living in my head

And escape fate and disapparate, evaporate, evacuate, and inactivate

Fake but it cut the breaks

Now I'm driving my universe into a lake and the weight

Weight of the world don't wait

We make mistakes when it's all at stake

For goodness sake, a double take

But I don't want to eat that cake

I ruminate inside meaning

To illuminate a dark mind

I communicate without speaking

And I've seen so much I went blind

I'm wide-eyed, live in a lie

Live in a lie with a lion inside

Live in a lie with a lion inside

Of my mind that is hungry, is hungry for my

Sanity, my sanity, I

Live in a lie with a lion inside

Live in a lie with a lion inside

Of my mind that is hungry and I don't know why

Pressure drop, deep breath, time stops

A broken et cetera, dot, dot, dot

Pressure drop, pressure drop, pressure drop

I feel it consuming, I can't stop

Dot, dot, dot, the lines join the dots

And I'm tying knots then divide then multiply

Square the root of pie, beat the puzzle, I

Try to keep my mind focused on the line

Hopscotch and pop rock

I take shots of teardrops

When I drop a pill pop

I find peace and time stops