Chronically Cautious

I gambled big for the smallest part, I know it's not

Enough to change what's been going, but it's all I got

Misjudge and switch up from target to target

Miscalculate what it is that I want

Spread my wings, writer's block

Dead by things made up

And if I'm honest

I think I'm beginnin' to question how much I want this

Overloaded, serial stressor, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

To keep it simple, I think I've been willingly followin' every impulse

Picturin' a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

The source of my serotonin is only digital

My reality's fading, I guess it's typical

Switch back, it's mismatched dopamine

Whiplash, hits fast, controllin' me

I sit in silence, all beat up

Death by a thousand cuts

So if I'm honest

I think I'm beginnin' to question how much I want this

Overloaded, serial stressor, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

To keep it simple, I think I've been willingly followin' every impulse

Picturin' a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

If I'm honest

Oh, if I'm honest (oh, if I'm honest)