It's Ok I Wouldn't Remember Me Either

I don't want to be awake again

I spend my days with my head in my hands

If I go outside, I'll fall apart

I am mostly scared by passing time

The world, it seems, gets more unkind

Inevitable tragedies will soon be mine

I am looking for an easy place

To mask my thoughts behind my face

Oh, brown-baked column of victory

Maybe I should just pack up and run away again

Let you forget that you were once my friend

Then watch another, go on and do better without me

But I could not go away, not if I wanted to

I can hide from friends but I cannot hide from you

These chemical reactions are dividing me

Self-deprecating thoughts interrupting all the time

Emphasising all the traits that I wish weren't mine

They speak louder than everybody

Try to keep my eyes closed as my outlook isn't bright

Compulsively complaining when I haven't got the right

I hate the way that I think and act

I want to end reality but I feel hesitant

Optimistic that the future will be more concerned than the present

And so for today, I'll remain intact

I don't want to be awake again

I spend my days with my head in my hands

If I go outside, I'll fall apart