Never Go Back

For Christ sake

Just Murder me right now

Because I prefer to sleep

Eternally

Than be a burden

To the world I seem

Quite sane

To her I need psych help

I burst into white flames

Burning in my hell

Certain that I changed

Turning inside out

Revert to a child state

A version of myself

Im learning that I ain't

The person she

Had first believed

Was perfectly nice well

I'm cursed a beast

And Searching for a girl to keep

My ring 'n be my belle

But baby if time tells

What I'm hiding you'll find out

I'm lying in wait

Like a lion when I pounce

I sting and I strike like

A knife when I bite down

Saliva in my mouth

I'm writhing pain and

I'm Fighting to survive through the night while I'm crying my eyes out

I can never go back

I can never go back

I can never go back

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I can never go back

There's an art to card dealing

And lots of hard feelings

When Caught stealing a heart

I walk on ceilings

I'm Off the wall railing

From all the false fairytales

Fair thee well

Failing to call family they'll

Never be a damsel you won't damage

Ran around the Ferris wheel

Fell and Damned to hell

Tell me where I went wrong Then

I'll get gone again

I've been strong so

Let's not pretend

I leapt off the ledge

And kept on

When death knocked

I pledged not to step

Cross that threshold

I get so upset

My head throbs with echoes,

My temples get tense

My chest locks

My neck chokes

Incense since I sense

Your contempt

My tempo crescendo

A clef note for treble

I get poked

And explode

I meant no offense

Can't defend what did

Or forget what was said

I can never go back

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I can never go back

Some truths are

Just too hard to face

I chose not

To Move on

As you contemplate

A new start

And you walk away

My shoes are unlaced

I loop knots

My noose drops

From roof tops

I do want to hang

Onto our charade

And prove I can change

But who are we kidding

I went too far to stay

And let too many victims

Assume all the blame

The music I've written

Including The mood and the rhythm

The tunes are the same

The muse that use

Is a cruel and unusual mistress

I drew from a place

That produced lots of pain

A crude and just brutal rendition

A view that is skewed

Can't improve my position

My conditions acute

I am shrewd and astute

So I knew all along

That I could never go back

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