I'm Still Here

I woke up and you weren't there

I reached for you like I always do

And my hand touched nothing

The room feels heavier without you

I didn't know silence could hurt this much

I miss you so much it burns inside me

I want to hear your voice, to see your face

I want to tell you I love you one last time

But you're gone, and it's like the world ripped itself in two

I keep looking, I keep reaching, I keep breaking

I keep seeing you everywhere—

In the sunlight on the wall

In the kitchen, in your favorite chair

I keep expecting you to laugh

To tell me not to be dramatic

And when you don't, it feels like I'm breaking

I miss you so much it burns inside me

I want to hear your voice, to see your face

I want to tell you I love you one last time

But you're gone, and it's like the world ripped itself in two

I keep looking, I keep reaching, I keep breaking

I scream at the sky sometimes

Because I hate that this happened

Because I hate that you're gone

Because I hate that I can't tell you

How much I needed you today

I didn't say it enough when you were here

I miss you so much it burns inside me

I want to hear your voice, to see your face

I want to tell you I love you one last time

But you're gone, and it's like the world ripped itself in two

I keep looking, I keep reaching, I keep breaking

I touch your things

Your jacket, your cup

Anything that still smells like you

I want to hold you through it all

To tell you I'm sorry, I'm sorry

For every time I wasn't there

For every time I didn't understand

I miss you so much it burns inside me

I want to hear your voice, to see your face

I want to tell you I love you one last time

But you're gone, and it's like the world ripped itself in two

I keep looking, I keep reaching, I keep breaking