Certain Situations

My heart is filled with pain sometimes I just want to cry

I’m smoking having sessions, got me looking to the sky

Momma used to tell me “It’ll be ok just dry your eyes”

Then my cousin woke me up, man I never seen him cry

I’m hearing voices in my head, somebody telling me she died

And now I’m contemplating, is this real or just a lie?

I always knew this day would come, I just never knew what time

Got me feeling lost and hopeless, she was always by my side

Then I developed anger issues, living life committing crime

Found myself often sitting in jail cells, writing rhymes

But I never told nobody how I was feeling inside

Had to hustle on my own, how else could I survive?

When your situation fucked up and your niggas switching sides

They don’t want to see you winning, they pretending in disguise

And it really fucked me up, now I don’t no who to trust

I never learned how to love, forgive me I’m just a thug

Convicted of selling drugs nigga

I hated living in that prison cell (In that prison cell)

Was always fighting with my bitch just to send me mail (Just to send me mail)

Was dialing numbers on that phone, trying to reach somebody

I guess it’s true about what they say, when you need somebody

(When you need somebody) They only there when it benefits their situation

And never think about the struggles that you might be facing

So I’m just trying to live my life and do my own thang

And get my grandma a house and buy my own chains (yeah!)

I came along way from the trap and being dope man

Passing blunts back and forth of that propane

I used to hang out on the porch with the dope man (With the dope man)

And watch him work a 9 to 5 slanging cocaine

Some of my family good for nothing, always stealing something (Damn)

Man I’m just trying to live in peace, with no interruptions

These bitches fucking with my head, always make assumptions (You know!)

My mind be racing day and night, I could hardly function

Too many niggas dead and gone, most of them was cousins

I got this shit all on my own, it’s got to stand for something