Loved You First

I was holdin' you down, losin' me

Callin' it love, callin' it destiny

Mirror talk, askin' what's wrong with me

Why I gotta change just for you to see?

You said slow down, I was movin' too fast

But you were the one stuck in the past

Every time I tried, you pulled away

Then blamed my heart for feelin' this way

You only showed up when it was easy

Pulled me close just to leave me

I kept the faith, you kept control

Gave you my soul, you kept it cold

I loved you when I didn't love me

Gave you all of me for nothin'

You said you loved me, but you loved you

Guess I should've seen it comin'

I loved you when I didn't love me

Now I'm pickin' up the pieces

You had my heart, you didn't keep it

I loved you first, yeah, I mean it

You'd come home quiet, eyes on your phone

I felt invisible right next to you

Only gentle when you needed somethin'

Tell me, who was really usin' who?

You lifted me up just to let me drop

Called it passion, but it hurt a lot

I was alone with you right there

That kind of lonely hit different

I was speakin', you weren't listenin'

I was givin', you were missin' it

I took blame you never owned

Loved you deeper than I should've known

I loved you when I didn't love me

Gave you all of me for nothin'

You said you loved me, but you loved you

Guess I should've seen it comin'

I loved you when I didn't love me

Now I'm pickin' up the pieces

You had my heart, you didn't keep it

I loved you first, yeah, I mean it

Why I always see the best in you?

Even when you show me the worst, it's true

I was tryna heal you, broke myself

That ain't love, that's losin' self

I loved you when I didn't love me

That's the part you won't admit

You said you loved me, but you loved you

Now I'm good on all of it