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I said I was doing fine and they all believed me
I became accustomed to hiding wounds
That had cut me deeply
Disguised with laughter, like a mystery book
They failed to read me
I could've got an Oscar
For how I guarded my pain discreetly
How they see me
Is a constant fear in my brain
Cause if they discovered I was broke
They wouldn't see me the same
I'd have to reclaim, all the qualities I premiered
Even though I'd realize they just got a glimpse
Of me in the mirror
And that ain't no pretty picture
Like a summer twister that's growing
And on the verge of level 5
With all this pent up emotion
Nowhere to turn to bleed
This drink of loneliness is so potent
There ain't no saving me
When I don't know who's soul I've been holding
I'm thinking
Who am I
Where did I go
Why am I here
No hope
And losing my soul
Why am I
Lonely on my own will, I'm losing it
Why am I blind to how bad the bruising is
Yeah, I wish that it was different I know
Cause I'm at the end of my rope
Yeah, if I die young will they remember me
Will I become an afterthought or cherished memories
Will they say I aligned with God or with the enemy
The verdict ain't been clear
Cause I became who I pretend to be
It isn't me, I'm like a puppet but I'm in control
I show 'em smiles when in reality nobody's home
I claim I love the independence but when I'm alone
This vortex of emotion opens doors that lead to empty roads
And now I know
That life can change in a moment
One second you're holding hope
The next your mind isn't open
It's like a swing state
You can't predict what is chosen
That's why I was perplexed
The ballot showed me as an opponent