feathers

Took a knife to my pillows

Want to cut him out my dreams

Instead feathers fill my lungs

Once again, it's hard to breathe

Nightmares still live in these blankets

They seeped into the mattress

All my enfeebled attempts

Not strong enough to make it happen

To rid you from my space

To rid you from my mind

Tried to rid you from my spirit

But you still cling to my life

I need to shed this weight

Shoulder blades begin to cave

I see them all move on

And I'm up praying for their ways

Took a knife to my wrist

Want to rid him from my bloodstream

Instead, I'm here bleeding out

When you bury me, dig extra deep

Wicked crimes still stain your flesh

They seeped into your pores

All your successful attempts

To bend my will to favor yours

Tried to rid you from my space

Tried to rid you from my mind

Couldn't shake you from my spirit

You still cling onto my life

Don't think I can shed this weight

Shoulder blades begin to break

They tell me to move on

And I'm praying for better days

Take a pistol to my temple

Need you gone once and for all

I hate the only way to shake you

Is have bullets break through skull

Your words still have me by the throat

Barbed wire round my neck

All I need is one good clean shot

And I'll never see you again

Choking on feathers

Wait for it to get better

Still choking on feathers

When will it get any better?