We Could Be Brave

Should we confine ourselves

to confidants' intervals?

So bent about our shelters,

blinds to open windows

Would it all be cut losses

and squandered farewells?

We Could Be Brave and see how it ends

Oh, the ways

I've forgotten how to stop

Flinching, inching

Distance me from earshot

Exhausted, my options

Take what time l've got

Breakthrough at half past 5 in the morning

Don't feel much better, better than nothing

It's moving at a glacier's pace, I need a higher dosage

Each catalyst more cataclysmic, crashing in slow motion

Still not quite sure how I never seem to catch it comin'

Misusing all my languid strength for all this shit I'm hauling

I know these things by name

I often wish they'd just stop calling

Just to justify my Sisyphean crawling

I'm losing all my saving grace

But saving face I'd take

Or some way to savor

My never-ending ache

It's moving with an anxious gait

I need a higher dosage

Don't say it's more than I can take

Some pressures never let

As much to overcome as left to comprehend

Close enough to grab it

"I don't wanna know"

Scattershot habits

Ricochet in echoes

We deal in distance, in hypotheticals

The shoulds, coulds, and woulds

I know these depths so well

Carved in the image of their maker

Despite how it might feel

Like the presence of another

If you mirror me, hate your reflection too, I'd hardly blame you

If you mirror me, hate your reflection too, I'd hardly blame you

Oh, the ways I've forgotten how to stop

(We could be brave, we should be safe here)

Lunging at my own tail, flesh for me to gnaw

(We could be brave, and just wait to see how it ends)

If this breaks, then it's a wound that I can gauze

(We could be brave, we could wait out the end of days)