It Didn’t Start With You

Staring in the mirror

I'm thinking about getting surgery

I'm thinking about getting skinny

Wishing I was small

You were once here

Back when you were 17

And after you had your babies

Around when Bryce could crawl

Is my self hatred learned?

Or is it in my code?

Passed down from your mother's mother

Prophesized, and predisposed

A generational curse

That'll only get worse

Rotting out our family tree

It didn't start with you

But it'll end with me

You'd get home from work

The 2008 recession

Walk in to a messy kitchen

Anger in your throat

Now when I'm hurt

I don't get meek, or quiet

I get mean, I riot

I feel fury when provoked

Is my anger learned?

Or is it in my code?

Passed down from your father's father

Prophesized, and predisposed

A generational curse

That'll only get worse

Rotting out our family tree

It didn't start with you

But it'll end with me

It'll end with me

It'll end with me