Oh How We Fell

The sudden realisation that not all is what it seems

Rises somehow exponentially

It turns from a cry into a wail

Then a scream and then a howl

An endless broken-down soliloquy

Pain can force the hand and turn the mind

The pictures taint the judgement every time

Then I turn around and see a wreck strewn on the road

The pictures and the pain you'll never know

The pictures and the pain that I was good enough

To keep from scarring you

Some things are meant for you and you alone

So I add more fuel to the fire

And try to find an answer in the pyre

At first the flames are comfort, but the smoke gets in the eyes

There's only so much life that one can burn

And now I find I'm dancing 'round the ashes

Of the bridges that I've burned

I take nothing from the lessons that I've learned

And so the wheel relentlessly goes 'round

Just cuts the rut a little deeper down

This youthful smile has turned into a frown

The eyes forever down, the spark forever drowned

I'll sing as I go

I've learnt well that it's best not to know

And I use up the last of what's left

In a vain effort just to forget

This anchor drags as it's pulled

It's disturbing the calm of the pool

I am lost in this mournful refrain

While re-analysing the stain

This tainted wreck of life's again

And if what you've said is true

I'm condemned to repeat till I'm through

Least until I can learn to forgive

Or learn simply not to relive

And this dream I could weave

So profoundly I finally could sleep

Undisturbed by the demons and shapes

Of this endless cycle of betrayal

Though I'm weak and frail

And how is one supposed to mourn

If one is not entirely sure where to start?

And if it's dead

Why can't I cry?

And all the things you told me that

You'd write upon my palm

They were lies

Say that they were lies