I Lit The Fire

Why do I always do this?

I let myself fall when the writing's bright red all over the walls

I always go there when I say that I won't

'Cause I'm terrified of dying alone

Can't get a grip, losing my mind

Trying too hard, too much of the time

And all this bullshit, I put it on myself

Looking for heaven while I'm dancing through hell

Going up in flames, but I lit the fire

Got no one else to blame 'cause I ain't a good liar

I'm a professional at digging holes that I can't crawl out of

So enjoy the show

Going up in flames, but I lit the fire

Yeah, I lit the fire

Every morning I wake up

I hide all my lies behind the disguise of drugstore makeup

And I'm trying so fucking hard

To be the kind of person they want when I'm not

Anxious, avoidant point of view

Why blame me when I could blame you?

The more I do, the more I lose

Classic

Going up in flames, but I lit the fire

Got no one else to blame 'cause I ain't a good liar

I'm a professional at digging holes that I can't crawl out of

So enjoy the show

Going up in flames, but I lit the fire

Yeah, I lit the fire

Going up in flames, but I lit the fire

Wish I could pass the blame, but I ain't a good liar

I'm a professional at digging holes that I can't crawl out of

So enjoy the show

Up in flames, but I lit the fire

Yeah, I lit the fire