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You could tell me everything, then hold it all against me
When you see me slowly losing my mind, mind
Sleep-deprived and keepin' my composure, feelin' empty
I was screamin' out, but fuck it, I'm cryin'
Does it all get better if I lie to myself?
I've been trying all of the methods
I try to communicate what I usually think, and it comes off aggressive
See now, where's the part where I finally chill
And I stop feeling like I'm being tested? (Damn)
And I stop feeling like I gotta walk on
Eggshells and only say thoughts with edits (Fuck)
Every situation causing discomfort
All of my art, I've been losing my love for
All of the things that I used to be hype about
Now it's like, "Fuck that, I don't like it now"
Bit nervous, discouraged, imperfect, but how am I supposed to be?
I've been hurting, just learning
Why is everybody always saying something wrong with me?
If you only knew me, you knew all the things that
Come out of my mouth are a product of trauma
I don't think anything could make me feel better
I could fix it, but I just don't wanna
I go to therapy, they wanna sit me down
And ask questions all about my family
Then all my sleeping habits and my eating habits
Take my fucking brain and keep beating at it
Got this sinister energy fueled by some
Envy, it's deep inside of me, embedded
How you expect me just not to be jealous?
I wanted the love I see everyone getting
Mainly the reason I feel so alone is all '
Cause I don't even like my reflection
Maybe the reason I don't feel at home is 'cause I feel
A lot and I don't express it (I don't express it all)
You could tell me everything, then hold it all against me
When you see me slowly losing my mind, mind
Sleep-deprived and keepin' my composure, feelin' empty
I was screamin' out, but fuck it, I'm cryin'
Baby, you could find me
Somewhere crushed beneath all my anxiety
Fuck all of these demons, I'ma bite
Eat your fucking heart out, what they taught me
'Til I feel the need again
Oh, no, self-sabotage
Barter dome just for applause
Rip my heart out with these claws
Pray to God he change my flaws
Tell me there's a lot of me that's good
Those are traits that I ain't ever saw
Mama, I was supposed to be a soldier, why my pain make me so soft?
Why my pain don't get better? There's a side I ain't shown
When I get intimate, it feel like I break bones
Shouldn't have met you, I should've stayed home
Now I've already ruined my world
Where else do you think I'd taint yours?
I looked in your eyes and saw the sun
Too bad only love when rain pours, I'm sorry
You could tell me everything, then hold it all against me
When you see me slowly losing my mind, mind
Sleep-deprived and keepin' my composure, feelin' empty
I was screamin' out, but fuck it, I'm cryin'
Baby, you could find me
Somewhere crushed beneath all my anxiety
Fuck all of these demons, I'ma bite
Eat your fucking heart out, what they taught me
'Til I feel the need again
You could tell me everything, then hold it all against me
When you see me slowly losing my mind, mind
Sleep-deprived and keepin' my composure, feelin' empty
I was screamin' out, but fuck it, I'm cryin'