Can’t Even Tell

Alright so

If the world blows up

Would we still hang out? Would you hit me up?

You see, I think too much

'Til I think I ruin everything I touch, yeah

And if we all just died

Would we still hang out in the afterlife?

Eating takeout all night

Would you still let me be your right-hand guy?

My friends don't really understand me

My family, they don't like me well

Yeah, I'm fighting hard and losing

Learning through the bruising

Maybe it's a good thing

I can't even tell

I'm hanging by a shoestring

Riding all the mood swings

Maybe it's a good thing

I can't even tell, yeah

I while away these days

Nothing to look forward to but still I wait

Scenario: worst case

I don't make peace with my weirdo brain

And with all the right words and in the right way

Who knows what I could achieve or obtain

Come take a ride around in my brain

'Cause I know that you get it

My friends don't really understand me

My family, they don't like me well, yeah

Yeah, I'm fighting hard and losing

Learning through the bruising

Maybe it's a good thing

I can't even tell

I'm hanging by a shoestring

Riding all the mood swings

Maybe it's a good thing

I can't even tell (anymore)

Yeah

It's too good to be true, so it's probably true

I'm feeling good today

Would suck if something came along and changed that, hey

So yet come what may

I'll be right here ready to join the fray

It's like you always say

You gotta learn to see yourself from outside, babe

So what would you change?

'Cause I'm just tryna love my cage

And I'm fighting hard and losing

Learning through the bruising

Maybe it's a good thing

I can't even tell

I'm hanging by a shoestring

Riding all the mood swings

Maybe it's a good thing

I can't even tell anymore

Fighting hard and losing

Do what makes you nervous

Tryna make you smile

I've got no self-awareness

Been like this a while