Soul Searching

Once a long time ago I fell in love

It's the type of feeling once you get it you can't get enough

She got me learning stuff, other half of human that I never was

Type of shit you can't learn unless you fight for trust

We fell out same speed we fell in

I was too young, I got my ego and I walked off

Started searching for another cause it never stops

Started to realize what I had was a better crop

Then life hit me with the depression

Negative thought patterns, the past gave me obsession

But I don't want no pity so I don't talk about it

Hid it so well, I got the music, I could walk without it

Windows to the universe, philosophy I state the loudest

Beverly Street, I found me but still my ego doubt it

Wanted to find comfort so I convinced myself I found it

But really I was walking around it

Uh, soul searching

You really want love? Then love yourself

Corny ass motherfucker

Real philosophers

Yeah! Yeah she way too fine and I'm way too high

To be chatting at a party, so your place or mine

I open myself to her, I don't waste no time

So what you want? A dinner, a picnic, record some vocals?

Digits, I get it, Ima text her once this party over

Wake up the next morning, I'm getting no response

Do I text her again? cause she what I really want

Started to think back to what the song said

You can't love someone else if you don't love yourself

I can see by my reaction I need to focus on mental health

Falling into addiction to the resistance of your help

I just got the beats and I don't need to be with someone else

Spark in my mind, I need healing

Ignite the flame but the light's a good feeling

Can't look around the corner, I can peek above the ceiling

What I'm seeing is appealing, more than she could be revealing

What you looking for? El Dorado, Nirvana?

Imaginary other half is living in Nevada

I just wanna find the words, the ones I never thought of

But I'm caught up like a soldier terracotta, you get brought up