Alive

I gave you my heart with my eyes wide open

Every promise sounded like truth when it was spoken

Late night calls, now it's silence on my phone

I'm in a crowded room but I still feel alone

I replay every word like a broken scene

Trying to find where love went wrong with me

Smiling in public, crying when I'm home

Learning how to stand on my own

Every tear fell like a lesson in pain

Every scar taught me strength in the rain

I was lost in your shadows and doubts

But I'm finding my light right now

I was hurt, I was breaking inside

Living with these fears I tried to hide

Endless worry kept me up all night

But I'm rising, I'm learning to fight

Yeah I bent, but I didn't fall

I survived when I lost it all

From the ashes of goodbye

I'm still standing, still alive

Trusted your words like they were my guide

But you were running while I stayed and tried

Every excuse was another door closed

Another dream that I almost lost

Now I see clearer than I did before

I know what my heart is worth much more

I won't beg love that walks away

I'm choosing me, starting today

All the nights I was losing sleep

All the prayers I was scared to speak

I was drowning in what we were

Now I'm breathing again, I'm sure

I was hurt, I was breaking inside

Living with these fears I tried to hide

Endless worry kept me up all night

But I'm rising, I'm learning to fight

Yeah I bent, but I didn't fall

I survived when I lost it all

From the ashes of goodbye

I'm still standing, still alive

I won't let your love define my pain

I won't let your past control my name

I'm stronger now than I've ever been

This is where my healing begins

I was hurt, yeah I paid my price

Gave my heart and I rolled the dice

But I found my power in the pain