All I Ever Might Be

So around the same time, uh

That I started like freestyling like writing more, uhm

I had just gotten fired

The only other job that I worked apart from music

I was a janitor at a hospital

Deadass

Yeah

So I worked overnights

I was like 12 'til 4 a.m

Just like four hour shifts

I don't think I've

Ever been this fucking stressed in my life

Creature part two isn't finished, I lied

Just to get them off my back though I tried

I can't create when I'm dying inside

Moving this weekend I wish I could fly

Don't have my car but I still gotta drive

Pack up the U-Haul and tell my mom bye

Hop on i-86 thinkin' bout why

Am I like this?

I don't like this

All my friends are enemies behind my eyelids

Losing sleep I drive all week and raise my mileage

Guardin cut his fucking hair now I don't like him

Depression take me by 25

Fuck going out I'll just stay inside

"This isn't you", I say to myself

Every night lately I contemplate suicide

"Oh but you're famous online so your life must be great"

They say, but that's a fucking lie

Crawl into bed around seven a.m

And the headaches come full force, I wanna die

Oh, oh, oh (Da da da da da da da da da da da da da)

Oh, oh, oh (Da da da da da da da da da da da da da)

Hey, Hollywood would your people ever like me

Misunderstood is all I ever might be

Hey, Hollywood would your people ever like me?

Misunderstood is all I ever might be

Hey, Hollywood would your people ever like me?

Misunderstood is all I ever might be