Kokaine. (Outro)

I ain't gon lie

There was a time where I just didn't know what love was

I couldn't tell

Fresh out of middle school

I was crackin thru my shell

Body made in heaven, but she dragged through hell

To me, she was a W

To her, I was an L

Who knew kids could be this toxic

Took all of her shit till I damn near lost it

Took a couple years until I realized I was used and abused

And was any of it worth it

It depends on your view

I knew a shordy who would play with my emotions like a game

Couple shordies told me cause I wasn't reppin', I was lame

Told a shordy I had fell for her, was tryna be her flame

She went and fucked all on my mans, I never looked at him the same

Met a shordy who would teach the boy that love is like cocaine

When you on it, it's a miracle that's fuckin' up your brain

And you off it, all that hurt that you ignored is like a train

Because it hits you at full speed

And your whole world turns into pain

At least it did for me

That ain't no shit for kids

Yeah, we was young, that don't excuse you for the shit you did

You gave me demons that would haunt me for the years to come

So now talk to them whenever I be feeling numb

I gave y'all everything I had when I had nothin' to give

I gave a girl my life when I ain't even want to live

I wish I left em' all alone and left those words unspoken

Cause all them promises they made to me were fuckin' broken

I like cocaine, but not the powder

I like the high

The feeling of being on cloud nine

Mind fried

Only thinking about what's ahead on me

Believing the past is dead to me

I hate overthinking, so I do cocaine

But it's not cocaine

It's the feeling of seeing your name pop up in my notifications

It's the feeling of having enough relations to give birth to a new nation

It's that feeling you have before everything begins to go wrong

I'm going through withdrawals

Banging my head against the walls

Telling myself I don't need it

Knowing I do

Knowing the pain is something I can't take

Knowing the truth is something I can't face

She's gone

She never loved you

She played you like the art of war

Her real name is Sun Tzu

Kicked my emotions around like she was practicing kung fu

Your mistake was to lie to me, and mines was to trust you

Switched from red hearts to blue hearts in my texts cause I'm cold-hearted

I don't love like I used to

Couldn't take the hint

She gave it to me like a Blue's Clue

My friends tryna see if I'm good, in my ear like a Bluetooth

Talkin bout I'm goin cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs

And maybe I am

Cause there wasn't a moment I wasn't smiling when you had me

Wore that smile like it was makeup

Could've called me a drag king

Hid my depression better than the formula for Krabby Patties

I was the Fred to your Daphne

But now you look at me like I'm Shaggy

How could you lead me on, pump me up like a balloon, just to pop it

Stop it, drop it, and roll over my confidence

Broke up my mental stability like Pangaea, the seven continents

It wasn't an accident, it was evil, and there wasn't no consequence

And it's just not fair

I can't move on from the love I thought you were giving me

For a year, how could you pretend you were into me

I thought you had my back, you even acted like a mini me

Then you hit me with that bullet like I'm John F. Kennedy

You shot down hope

You shot down happiness

You took my positivity and left me with your nastiness

Sick, diluted, twisted thoughts

I'm lost in your negativity

It's hitting me over and over and over again

I should go to rehab

But no one's had deeper conversations than we have

Put a smile on my face like I put on a ski mask

Then you kicked me to the curb like I was this week's trash

I can't trust nobody no more

Cause what if they do me like you did

I'm scared to talk to anyone these days, cause the truth is

Ion wanna be wrapped around somebody finger, lookin stupid

Like 6ix9ine in a jail cell, or Juice Wrld dreaming lucid

I still see your shadows in my room

Dancing across my walls, surrounding me

Grounding me to the point where I can't move

And your memory was something I didn't wanna lose

But I can't be addicted forever

I love cocaine

But it's not cocaine

It's the high

The feeling of being on cloud nine

Mind fried

Only thinking about what's ahead on me

Believing the past is dead to me

I hate overthinking

So I do cocaine.