Me

Growin' up in Long Beach that was me

Just another statistic it was plain to see

That it was just me and my moms in that duplex

Orange avenue right next to the projects

Hearing sirens would rock me to sleep at night

But never scared the guns they were out of sight

Where was my father

He was up in Victorville just an hour away

My biological he didn't bother

To see what I was up to or see how I was growing

Into to the man who I am or was becoming

So my uncles stepped in and became that missing piece

My uncle Lewis, and my uncle Larry

Can't forget about uncle John

Became a man because of y'all and I thank You God

For putting those men in my life

That helped my mother raise a son

One of the hardest things to do in life

I'm here thinking back of why I am who I am

How I am because of where I am

Was it a part of the plan to be where I am

Have what I have I'm trying to understand

Why I think how I think be how I be

Have massive dreams but late to execute or succeed

I don't blame anyone but me that man In the mirror

I need it to be clearer

So I have to go back to where I began

Where my ideologies just created this man

Why I started to suppress my emotions

And go through the motions

Just to avoid the commotion

Of facing my feelings of abandonment

This is therapeutic to take it out with a pen

So let's take this journey Into my past

As I reminisce

I would do good in school

Like I was supposed to do

I found a learning disability but I still made it through

But that wouldn't stop me

Cause I still feel so empty with no man to copy

In my own home I was happy but still felt alone

Ousted by my race cause I went to schools

With different complexions from my own

I acted different I spoke different looked different

I dressed different I even even lived different