Secrets

I waste my time to fade away

Thoughts decayed, I never made

Sinking down, what we held at bay

I wanted to feel

The things that you'd never reveal

Kept secrets that I will always conceal

And never could heal alone

I wanted to see

The things that I thought we could be

Nightmares become the only thing I dream

Wake up to the screams, I know

These pieces you left me

Are broken and empty

Hopeless attempting

When only resenting

Anywhere, everywhere I go, it seems I'm dissenting

I wish they'd exempt me

From what they're expecting

Never detecting

And never respecting

The close of an entry, yeah

Don't ever look behind, it slows me down the road

Even if I'm reminded, I don't let it show

Get in the line, never a sign, 'til I explode (I explode)

Cracking the spine, building a shrine deep in the hole

I waste my time to fade away

Thoughts decayed, I never made

Sinking down, what we held at bay

I wanted to feel

The things that you'd never reveal

Kept secrets that I will always conceal

And never could heal alone

I wanted to see

The things that I thought we could be

Nightmares become the only thing I dream

Wake up to the screams, I know

All you ever did was take my weekends

Now we're not even speaking

Heard you said I'm changing, no peeking

Wanna act like you weren't the reason

But your love switches up like the seasons

'Cause one day we're in love, then you're leaving

When you're here we're like in different regions

If we're good, then tell me why I'm grieving, yeah

Tell me I'm the one to blame

When you're the one who's to blame, yeah

You told me that you would change

But I'm not seeing the change, yeah

I'm crying everyday

I don't wanna live this way, yeah