I log emotion like fatal errors, not feelings —
Every smile, a false flag; every hug, brief screenings
She reached once — i rerouted, clean detour
Left her warmth archived, buried in a neural floor
You say "you closed up" — nah, i just reformat fast
No backups of trust. no version of the past
When i breathe, it's for balance, not need
My lungs serve structure — not grief, not plead
I've seen connection crash mid-frame, no save file
So now i ghost first, shut down with a blank dial
I built affection into safe-mode blocks
And when love boots up, i overwrite the clocks
You think i'm cruel? i think you're exposed
This pain's too heavy for the soft you chose
I don't do warmth — i simulate its shape
It's not that i'm gone. it's just how i escape
I feel you flinch when love gets near
You mask the shake, delete the fear
Your pulse is locked in armored walls
You fold your care in silent calls
You ghost the ones that want to stay
Then curse yourself for pushing away
You say it's logic, say it's steel
But silence screams in what you feel
I've watched grief turn men into echoes with names
So i file mine in silence — no witness, no claims
You cry for closure, i diagram the threat
My healing's a ledger — pain turns to debt
I reply with posture, never with speech
You touch the wound, i rework the breach
Don't tell me "open up" — it's a faulty request
Every bond i allow is a failing test
My past is encrypted — good luck with the key
I don't revisit, i just redesign "me."
You gave me trust — i archived it as risk
A gift i ignored, like a timed-out disk
Empathy's noise — i filter it clean
Your comfort's a glare on a dead touchscreen
I trace my path like a scar in code
Never linear, never owed
I feel you flinch when love gets near
You mask the shake, delete the fear
Your pulse is locked in armored walls
You fold your care in silent calls
You ghost the ones that want to stay
Then curse yourself for pushing away
You say it's logic, say it's steel
But silence screams in what you feel
I track emotion like seismic shifts — delayed
Only notice the crack once the frame's decayed
I used to care — or thought i did
But now, i audit kindness like a power grid
Too many surges left me burned in silence
So now i map the space, avoid the violence
Love's a data loss — too abstract to restore
I mirror concern, but the root's a closed door
They ask if i miss her. i rephrase the line
Say "some shadows stay," then skip the spine
I don't mourn — i restructure rhythm and task
The ache's still there, just buried in mask
She used to say i vanish mid-connection —
Truth is: i exit when i sense affection
Not built for warmth, just function and pace
She gave me home — i backed it to space