I used to blame God

I used to blame God for everything man did to me

I would curse the sky for watching silently

I couldn't speak of what you did

Bit my tongue, now I'm biting a bullet

We locked eyes as I begged

Nothing could change your mind

I saw evil take a man

For a moment, your eyes turned red

All my strength didn't mean a damn

But Lord knows I tried

I used to blame God for everything man did to me

I would curse the sky for watching silently

I used to blame God for everything I did to myself

Just to feel clean again

When it was over, I said I was scared

"Why did you do that? Were you even there?

Do you still love me if I didn't like it?"

You stayed quiet

Promise me you won't do it again

There's no world in which I could win

The silence was loud as you pulled me in

My words meant nothing

I used to blame God for everything man did to me

I would curse the sky for watching silently

I used to blame God for everything I did to myself

Just to feel clean again

I used to blame God for everything man did to me

But it wasn't His crime, maybe He was begging with me

I used to blame God for everything I did to myself

But it was never my sin to wash away