Birthday

I gave myself permission to avoid you

You say you worry for me

What does that say about you

I deserve the quiet

I deserve to be okay

I won't keep my lights on

You will soon forget my name

So you're right

I'm wrong

I feel like shit everyday

You paint me so wrong

I stay with guilt till' I break

I gave myself permission to avoid you

(Happy birthday to you!)

(But you're wrong, it's not my birthday.)

I gave myself permission to avoid to avoid you

I gave myself permission to break through

I won't force a smile where nothing grew

(Happy birthday dear-)

(Oh, I forgot your name!)