sickminded

When did I get lost

I'm losing sight and I can't stop

Reflecting all the doubt

And I'm blaming everyone else

I've been pushing out and shutting down

The ones who been looking out

If I let them in to see

They'll look at me so differently

I have to take control to find out

The moment I went wrong and hide out

If the worst is yet to come so right now

I sit here in silence

Afraid that I might be giving up

I still don't understand

Why they stick around, why they give a fuck

Everything I've said

Just makes it worse and I push my luck

In time I will come around (come around)

And I'll see the sun if I don't drown (don't drown)

So many apologies I lose count

Waiting for the day we just sit back and laugh it out

Don't wanna be damaged

Don't wanna be worthless

So, I'm never losing sight

I have to take control to find out

The moment I went wrong and hide out

If the worst is yet to come so right now

I sit here in silence

Afraid that I might be giving up

(Whoa... No... I'm giving...)

Say we're fine, say in once, I just gotta hear it

Paranoia is taking over, I know I can feel it

And I wanna close my eyes

Always trouble to my left so I'm looking to my right, uh

And it don't matter cause it comes where I go

When I'm home in New York or London and Tokyo

And trust me I can't explain it or let alone contain it

I'm giving up on me and I didn't write this just for entertainment

I have to take control to find out

The moment I went wrong and hide out

If the worst is yet to come so right now

I sit here in silence

Afraid that I might be giving up

I'm giving up

Afraid that I might be giving up

I'm giving up

I might be giving up