So have you heard that
'Ben is Back
He's been gone for some years
But he's just around the corner
You okay with that?
I know he stole a couple things
From the family in the days
He was sick
About to throw up
Somebody give him a bag
Now it's
Boutta be a holiday
So is he coming home
Or about to make his momma pray
It's boutta be a holiday
You know that feeling where you can't breath?
You tossin, turnin, wide awake
Because you can't sleep
You've got anxiety
You wonder why you can't see
That he's the poison in you're life
You making sure that he's alright
He wouldn't do the same for you
He said he mixed with black and white
You know exactly what he'd do"it" for
Said he's cleaning up his life
But he's about to ruin yours
Let him back inside the crib
And now he's going through the drawers
You swore he wasn't using
Now you sittin' in his funeral
And you don't want nobody bringing roses
The don't understand
You got your whole life broken
Should've left him when he first
Fell off
I know it's hard
Cuz you gave so much
They said them rehab groups
Didn't do a thing for him
Cuz his momma
Held his daddy
As she tried to scream for him
Everybody liked him
His drugs were always free
Oh my God
How that made you
Spoiled
So have you heard that
'Ben is Back
He's been gone some years
But he's just around the corner
You okay with that?
I know he stole a couple things
From the family in the days
He was sick
About to throw up
Somebody give him a bag
Now it's
Boutta be a holiday
So is he coming home
Or about to make his momma pray
It's boutta be a holiday"So what is it about?""It's like
It's this movie that like
This kid struggles with addiction
He goes home for Christmas
And like
The whole movie is kind of
His mom just chasing him around cuz she's afraid of him
Fucking up
And he meets this girl
And he gets her hooked on drugs and like
I'm not 'Ben' right now
But I've been 'Ben' before
And like
I'm tired of being Ben
I just
I don't wanna hurt people anymore
I'm tired of hurting people
It was so beautiful
The way they read the eulogy
This a hot take
I really wish that it was
You or me
And right now I'm not suicidal
I don't mean to wish you any pain
But it's because of 'Ben
Your family's only visiting your grave
You see
Ben went by his middle name
Thought it'd make him different
Maybe that would finally
Make some people pay attention
Ben had different
Family issues
Always got detention
Ten years after leaving school
He lives in interventions
With a bunch of other
Dirt bag
Dirt poor
Bottom of the mop buckets"Hi my name is so-and-so
Addicted to the rock
But it's
Really nice to meet you
Hopin' later we can talk
Soon I'll have you hooked back on the thing
You've tried to stop"
By now you know that
Ben is back
No one trusts him all alone
Heard it through the grapevine
That he once stole a phone
Sounded like he struggled
Made mistakes that
Made him grow
Ben's the kid I wish I got to know
Have you heard that kid was back?
He's been gone some years
His people in tears
They're terrified
Scared they goin' lose him
I've told them I changed
But don't get to say that I never lied
I don't get to say that I never lied
(Ben's around the corner, I'm okay with that)