Текст пісні
Look, hey, I got a head full of demons for real
Been out my body, been meaning to chill
Got a bunch of bad habits, I'm mean to kill
I got PTSD and it fuck with me still
Trauma so deep that I don't wanna live
Gave it my best, but it's hard to forgive
So it's fuck you for life and you know what you did
Dying from shit that be gone when I'm spoken
And wasn't 'til I wrote this I realized I'm broken
Gotta let go of some chapters need closing
I boiling with vengeance from grudges I'm holding
Gon' need a ice pick to get to my heart
'Cause I buried that bitch in Alaska, it's frozen
People see what's fall is, still playin' my part
'Cause I knew it'd be dangerous like this when they throw me
They say happiness, it never lasts
Peace is somethin' I never had
I just can't outrun my lil' past
I'm tired and I'm doin' bad
For help, I can't ever ask
These grudges is all that I have
My back is what everyone stabbed
All I've been lately is mad
Happiness, it never lasts
Peace is somethin' I never had
I just can't outrun my lil' past
I'm tired and I'm doin' bad
For help, I can't ever ask
These grudges is all that I have
My back is what everyone stabbed
All I've been lately is mad
I wasn't given respect, I demanded it
Shit that went left wasn't right, but, I ended it
Playing it cool, but inside I was panicking
Honestly, living in fear of abandonment
And it wasn't I ever loving to finish it
Painting express, I'm just randomly rambling
Rattling up all these feelings to manage 'em
I ain't with faking the funk or the pandering
Blaming myself for the bullshit I landed in
Needed the help, but this fame wasn't a fan of him
I had to lone wolf it, I really black sheep did it
Hurt my lil' feelings, some love what I needed
Hated myself for mistakes I repeated
But made it myself so this bed where I'm sleeping