Drown Inside A Lullaby

My mind is so cloudy

There's vapor in my brain

I keep on trying to slip down

Into a place of relaxation

The sensation ain't found me

I need to fall asleep

But I'm so deep in my doubt

PTSD has got me wishing I was

Deep within the ground

I've got these blankets and a sheet wrapped

Around me

But they don't keep me safe cause now the demons

Surround me

They want me to believe the world is better

Without me, as they throw overboard and I'm

Drowning

Every day I wake and I pray

I pray for a better day

But no one's listening

These doubts are the

Mushroom clouds of a battleground

That no one cares to see

Im face to face with my judgements

Stuck with anger shame and repugnance

This siren song of injustice

Ah Fuck this I need a substance

I wish it was as easy to fall asleep

As it is when I'm giving into my disease

And even as the stains on my face run dry

When the fire goes out is when I

Drown inside a lullaby

Drown inside it

No one prepares you

For when you chase a dream and it fails you

Then your thoughts they start to betray you

Say that I'm the only one that life is unfair to

How dare you

Just give in and numb the disgrace

Feel it thin the blood in these veins

Like a sirens kiss on my face

Reflected in the bottle

I wish it was as easy to fall asleep

As it is when I'm giving into my disease

And even as the stains on my face run dry

When the fire goes out is when I

Drown inside a lullaby

Sirens sing this song to me

Sirens Sing ensnaringly

Sirens scream hysterically

Sirens keep on scaring me

Lights that blind

I hear the sirens call my name

I'm alive

but not awake enough to speak

Drown inside a lullaby

Drown inside a lullaby

I wish it was as easy to fall asleep

As it is when I'm giving into my disease

And even as the stains on my face run dry

When the fire goes out is when I

Drown inside a lullaby

Drown inside it

Drown inside a lullaby

Drown inside a lullaby