Control

Something's lying deep inside and I can't take control

Been on my grind but getting tired I'm on this winding road

Feel crucified and I can't lie I feel so icy cold

But I'm a shine and hit my prime, I gotta take control

Everyday I think I'm losing myself, everyday I think I'm losing myself

Everyday I think I'm losing myself, stay strong because life it can put you through hell

I be feeling really paranoid alone in my head

Underneath the water with no way of holding my breath

Everyday I wake up feeling like it's solely the end

Trying to get my life right instead of only regret

It's like I got a fucking voice deep inside of me

The guy behind it is evil and eyeing me

Disguised himself like he's telling the truth

The only way I can fight him is when I rhyme in the booth

You see my health getting bad

I still keep on losing weight

My girl and I keep fighting

We don't know how to communicate

But if you ask me how I'm doing

I'll tell you I'm doing great

But honestly trying to bottle it will only fuel the flame

But when I let it out the sky is the limit

Every single thing I rap about my life authentic

Cause I'm white and I'm nerdy you think I'm pretending

But if you don't really know me you should mind your business bitch

I'm just trying to get it in and go

Let the music speak to me then I'm a kill it with my flow

I do it for myself cause I was bullied way before

And if I tried to speak it felt like hands around my throat

Now I'm 23 and I be feeling so alone

My family so far away, my homies dead and gone

The only way to let it out is flowing on a song

You think its just a hobby but you motherfuckers wrong

So we self medicate by blowing on the strong

Take a line of blow and go and blow it up your nose

Got a Newport lit so I'm blowing out smoke

And the Molly lift me up when I be feeling so low

And although it ain't the case I feel I'm rolling solo

Like the weather outside I be feeling so cold

Black Velvet or some Fireball it got me so throwed

In my zone going in in case you ain't already know

Something's lying deep inside and I can't take control

Been on my grind but getting tired I'm on this winding road

Feel crucified and I can't lie I feel so icy cold

But I'm a shine and hit my prime, I gotta take control

Everyday I think I'm losing myself, everyday I think I'm losing myself

Everyday I think I'm losing myself, stay strong because life it can put you through hell