Wearing Me Down

I'm recording this knowing that I'm probably never going to listen to it again

I just need to figure out how to like, be happy with myself

Stuffing it down

Till the message ain't apparent, I'm faking

Cause the more I want to say it

Well the less they want to hear it, damn

I'm feeling like I'm stuck

In the depths of my phone with you lately

But I fear I've got no movement

And it's wearing me down

I fucked it up

Half of my mind

Is forever occupied with the promise

That if I could find the will

Then I'd become a new person, damn

I'm healing from the faults

That have been in my noggin since day one

But my agency has gotten me through all of this time

With more to come

The whole idea that I am able to prove people's thoughts using other people's reactions to me is based off the fact that like, I understand what their reactions mean, and I know what they're thinking

And I fucking don't

Stuffing it down

Till the message ain't apparent, I'm faking

Cause the more I want to say it

Well the less they want to hear it, damn

I'm feeling like I'm stuck

In the depths of my phone with you lately

But I fear I've got no movement

And it's wearing me down

I fucked it up