Barely Breathing

I wear a smile like a mask made of glass

Every crack reminds me i can't go back

The mirror shows someone i don't know

I bleed in silence, but it never shows

These walls are closing in again

My lungs collapse beneath my skin

I'm drowning in my own reflection

Can't escape this disconnection

I fake the light so no one sees

The hell that lives inside of me

I'm not okay, i'm barely breathing

Every word i say feels like i'm bleeding

Try to hold on but i'm breaking apart

I disappoint everyone i love in the dark

Tell me it's fine, tell me i'm healing

But i'm losing faith in all these feelings

If i fade away, will you remember me?

Or just another ghost you failed to see

I built a home inside my pain

Every brick engraved with shame

No one knows the cost i pay

Just to stand, just to stay

The weight is crushing, i can't fake

These scars i hide for your sake

Every "i'm fine" is just a lie

To keep you safe while i die inside

I'm still here but i don't know why

The more i live, the more i die

Bury me in what i feel

Because nothing inside me is real

I'm not okay, i'm barely breathing

Every word i say feels like i'm bleeding

Try to hold on but i'm breaking apart

I disappoint everyone i love in the dark

If i fade away, will you remember me?

Or just another name lost to misery

I'm not okay i'm not okay