That's Life

That's life, that's what the people say

Riding high in April, shot down in May

But I know I'm gonna change that tune

When I'm back on top of June

Said goodbye to my past, so long I let it last

Stare out the window, science class

Night terrors ran to mom and dad

Depression at a young age, Turned me into the man that I am today

Beach trips on the sand, seagulls sing sun dips below the bay

Hard to find peace nowadays, People ask me if I've been okay

But I cover it up with a smile, Anxiety strikes, go crank up the dial

Curious when I was a child

Same problems, been a while

Getting tired of telling lies

Longest time was in denial

Started to accept, That I can't live without dealing with loss

Grandpa don't even know my name

Cliff face thought about jumping off

Parents always said stay away, guess what

Now I'm stuck with a cough

Xanax feeling like a Bodhisattva

Getting sober in an ashram

Wonder if there's even a sliver of hope

But I keep moving forward

Like a soldier in a total war

Purple heart for my vocal chords

My therapy feeling just like a chore

This time around I'm not gonna ignore

The Constant fucking warnings

Putting myself right through this torment

Lost friends, I just been keeping a score

PTSD, come on, give me some more

Don't wanna see no one, I'm locking my doors

There's a couple of pills and a gun in my drawer

This shit's just starting to really get old

Never stuck to what my mama told

Stand up for myself, I ain't gonna fold

Get in my path, you get steamrolled

Telling me need to go, get myself on track

Burning bridges when I look back

Taking downers just to relax

Let's get real, look at the facts

Making amends, my only task

There's no surprise to where I'm at

Walk around, wearing a mask

Leaving home, ain't coming back

Time is ticking, gotta get my shit together, stand in pouring rain

Traumatic events got me feeling like my mind is stained, Do it just for today

Overcoming my own self hate

It's too early to celebrate

Never know it can fall apart

Dream big like Dolly Parton

Using humor to cover up my own pain

Realizing life ain't a race

Trying to get to the finish line, I'm in my own lane

Swear it'll be different

Smiles shine and tears glisten

The truth lies in the lonely whisper

This time I'll go listen

That's life

That's what the people say

Riding high in April, shot down in May

But I know I'm gonna change that tune

When I'm back on top of June

That's life