outofphase

The world moves in rhythm, I move in delay

Their laughter lands a second too late

I fake the sync, I mouth the words

But it's white noise wrapped in verse

They talk about meaning like it's a trend

I lost mine where the city bends

Somewhere between a pill and a prayer

I caught my reflection — no one there

I used to dream in color, now it bleeds to grey

Every feeling I fake just fades away

I tried to find myself inside the haze

But I just met a stranger with my face

I'm out of phase

Half alive, half erased

Tried to get high to feel my skin

But nothing gets under it again

Time drips slow

Through holes I made to let it go

I'm out of phase —

Everyone worships a version of light

Mine flickers, then dies out at night

They chase the glow — I chase the lack

Gravity pulls but I don't pull back

Conversations feel like film

Dubbed in languages I can't fill

I laugh sometimes just to hear the sound

But even echoes don't stick around

Maybe this is growing up —

To feel the world and not belong

To hum a note that's never strong

I took the trip to lose the cage

But all I found was the same old maze

I'm out of phase

I'm out of phase

Half divine, half decayed

Tried to burn bright but burned too thin

Now I don't know where I end or begin

Time just hums — a static hymn

And I can't tell if I'm lost or them

I'm out of phase

No signal, no space