S.C.A.R.S

If I showed you my pain and scars

You'll be thinking

Is yo boy still calm

And Let me go in too deep

Coz if don't speak

You'll just hear bars

There's thing I say and there things I can't

The life I live all I say is calm

Coz Half of the mans don't know the half

That I'm bruised from different things So I feels different when I walk this path

Call me Suave or call me Suavé

You won't see man talking

And for some they won't see me man laugh

Coz when I spoke I covered the past

The things I kept, I kept in my heart

Had to show you that I could be tough

Coz when I spoke up who really listened up

The scars that got on me

They never deep it when I said I'm blessed

I still got this pain in my belly

But I'm still tryna do my best

See I had cancer like who would of guessed

And if I didn't would you say I'm blessed

If I didn't would I say I'm blessed

There was days that I sleep and woke up

Ask the Lord why you saved me then

From pain to purpose certain it was just Christ that saved me then

It could of been RIPs at ten

You come and ask me I will tell you when

You see me crying you won't see friend

You give me convo imma make it dead

Coz I thought about how many times I've bleed

Don't care if you judge me

I felt judged in my life coz I'm black it's hard

And Before you start judging me please, remember I have a past

Feel this pain it's still in my heart

And my Stories different to yours

And yours is different to mine

And I know lied and just said that I'm fine

Hearing them quotes like men don't cry

But deep inside I had pain in my eyes

How many times did I lie, and say that I was fine but who would care to know why

Now I'm a different guy, I keep smile, look brave, but I am still shy

Don't care how many times I say I was calm

I thought I could of died