So Was It Really Worth It All?

Ya never gonna know if you hit a all time low until you lose all hope

I think about killing myself to see if i have a soul

Dressed in some really nice clothes and surrounded by pretty ass hoes

Who i met all around the globe

Went to hell and back the day i got home

The door was closed

In fact it's always been a black hole

So now i sit outside and smoke till i choke

After all of this shit i still don't know how to cope

I really don't think i can feel love anymore my heart might be broke

Has me digging holes hoping to strike gold

Cant complain today it feels like it's a good day

'Cause I've been living in a daze

Just going thru the motions not knowing thats digging my own grave

I'm never safe

When the day fades and it starts getting late

Lucy has trapped me and wants to play

She's telling me this is my fate

Go out and do something great

Whatever it takes

If you want things to change

Stop running away

Don't be afraid

Let go of your pain

You'll be okay

Today the day you embrace burning in water and drowning in flames

It used to be a lot of fun

(not much longer then I'm gone)

Feeling like my hearts gone numb

(i've waited around for way to long)

Been to nice people think I'm dumb

(tryna convince myself that I'm wrong)

Empty connections mistaken for love

(got me feeling like i cant go on)

It used to be a lot of fun

(not much longer then I'm gone)

Feeling like my hearts gone numb

(i've waited around for way to long)

Been to nice people think I'm dumb

(tryna convince myself that I'm wrong)

So was it really worth it all

(i wish i could do it over from the start)

I'm all alone and no one really knows

How close i am to fucking explode

Dark clouds over my head

Everyday making me wish that i would just drop dead