TITAN

Grief is a circle

Wander round it to notice

The ending is where you began

Time is a fulcrum

Prying you forward

And all you can do is give in

Faith is an orbit

It's tension in motion

That pulls you along to the end

And I'm on that tightrope

Grasping at stars

As I sway back and forth over the edge

Change is a promise

That's given to anyone

Sojourning under the sun

My thoughts are in boxes

It's the best I can do

To accept what my mindset's become

The cosmos are shifting

My feelings are, too

And I'm trying to hold them in place

So I can control all the chaos

And make you believe that I'm doing okay

I wish I were larger than life

That my heart and my mind

Could decide on my purpose for once

My shoulders are straining

But I'd rather believe

That gravity's no match for me

So I'll hold the planets, along with your hand

And I'll hope you won't notice I don't understand

The weight of the stars and such

But I promise it's not too much

Do you see a titan? I sure hope you do

Cause my heart is so frightened that you'll see right through

The struggle to keep this up

But I promise it's not too much

It's not too much

What if I crash

I swear that I won't, but I might, and I'm scared

What if I'm crushed

Underneath all the weight of my questions and

Cares and my struggles and

Pain and convictions and grief and commitments and

Purpose and meaning and calling and fear that the

Fire within me has died

And the feeling that

I was the ghost this whole time

Breathing the lie that I desperately want you to buy

I can carry the cosmos along with my cross

But I'm pulling both sides of that pulley