I don't know where to start
What if I play the charts
What if I turn the cards
What if I made a song to show everything that is wrong
Is that what they're waiting for
Is that what will take me far?
Is that what will make a star
If I go and raise the bar will it fall and then break me, or
If I have to fit the part, will I sell what I hold, my core
If I have to sell my soul, will the darkness have full control
They warned me that this'll happen
They warned me they'll hold me captive
They warned me that all of the shade covers more than imagined
I feel like I losing, tragic
I feel like I'm moving backwards
I feel like my life is a movie, I'm the pursuing actor
I fear there's too many factors
I fear there's too little answer
I fear that these bars on the page are turning to be my captors
I'm trying to live my vision
I'm trying to have them listen
I'm trying to make them realize I got a lot potential
So how could I be afraid
How could I be lead astray
How could I go make a way with only this pen and page
I know I can find a path
I know I'll get back on track
I know I can get through all the things that I'm holding back
But depression comes back in waves
But stress has me feeling caved
But anxiety fills my days though music is my escape
I'm losing what I have made
I'm losing all that I paved
I'm losing the give and take and I wonder can I be saved
I'm falling into a space
I'm falling out of own
I'm falling I'm a disgrace-and I'm dying, flying alone
This darkness feels like my home
This darkness feels like a hole
This darkness feels like everything's gone that I put in my soul
Another day is past that means another one is gone
So I kill it a time
Killin' my vibe
Getting a fit for a dime
Takin' what is mine
Eye for an eye
Don't mistake it
The facts presented are blatant
I'm out of options
I have to take it
Though I've been patient
I know we racing
I'm catching up with my pacing
I'll be damned if we switching places
I know I can
Now I'm manic I'm gonna make it
I gotta plan, I'ma stand here until you break me
Won't get the chance but you can if you wanna take it
Test me if you tryna take it
Looking from the outside
The walls up so high
But they're falling down
Let me catch my stride
But I'm stallin
I'm tryna figure it all out yea
I'm tryna surface 'for I drown, yea
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
Somebody take me to the light yea
I miss the days when I could find my way
I miss the days when I had words to lay
I miss the days when make or break was just a phrase that I would say
But nowadays it's seems that's just how it stays
Now I'm caught up in the process
Feel I'm limited options
Feel I'm running out of time
I fear I'll never stop it
Fear I'll never spread my wings and get to go and top it
Fear consumed what's left to give, I'm givin' it all I got, yet
I pick myself off the ground
Hop on a sound
Feeling it now
Bringing it 'round
I'm killing it now
Up, I was down
Surface or drown
Give me my crown
Cuz I ain't going back
And in fact, the odds may never stack in my favor but don't stack yours against me
Don't tempt me
I'm inching towards empty
You hear me
Regretting what you said to me in the beginning
Admitting I went from losing to winning, it's a helluva feat
Nobody's better than me
You better believe that I'm gonna make it
Looking from the outside
The walls up so high
But they're falling down
Let me catch my stride
But I'm stallin
I'm tryna figure it all out yea
I'm tryna surface 'for I drown, yea
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
Somebody take me to the light yea