San Diego

I'll never go back

I'll never forget

San Diego's the place where the darkness slept

First class flight, neon lights

You said you'd never been so high

A hundred drinks, a thousand sins

I knew exactly where we'd been

I made it easy, you made it worse

Chasing a feeling in reverse

Thirteen years, a loaded gun

Pulled the trigger just for fun

In the night, the sound of your voice

Saying things you never meant

Like I had a choice

Our bed in San Diego turned

Me to a ghost

I lost my body to a boy

I loved the most

Said you'd dreamed it for so long

But your touch, your lust, your heart - were all wrong

Hotel walls, a private hell

I told you no, but you knew too well

The city slept, the ocean spun

I passed out before you were done

Morning comes, you slip away

Pretend it's gone, pretend I'm okay

I packed my things, I bit my tongue

Was it good for you? I hope you had your fun

Thirteen years, a loaded gun

Pulled the trigger just for fun

In the night, the sound of your voice

Saying things you never meant

Like I had a choice

Our bed in San Diego turned

Me to a ghost

I lost my body to a boy

I loved the most

Said you'd dreamed it for so long

But your touch, your lust, your heart - were all wrong

You moved too quick, you moved too hard

Left your mark, a memory scarred

Now you're gone, with someone new

A child born, a lie or two

But when you drink, I hope you see

The boy you broke inside of me

Our bed in San Diego turned

Me to a ghost

I lost my body to a boy

I loved the most

Said you'd dreamed it for so long

But your touch, your lust, your heart - were all wrong

You took your fill, more than I knew