I'll never go back
I'll never forget
San Diego's the place where the darkness slept
First class flight, neon lights
You said you'd never been so high
A hundred drinks, a thousand sins
I knew exactly where we'd been
I made it easy, you made it worse
Chasing a feeling in reverse
Thirteen years, a loaded gun
Pulled the trigger just for fun
In the night, the sound of your voice
Saying things you never meant
Like I had a choice
Our bed in San Diego turned
Me to a ghost
I lost my body to a boy
I loved the most
Said you'd dreamed it for so long
But your touch, your lust, your heart - were all wrong
Hotel walls, a private hell
I told you no, but you knew too well
The city slept, the ocean spun
I passed out before you were done
Morning comes, you slip away
Pretend it's gone, pretend I'm okay
I packed my things, I bit my tongue
Was it good for you? I hope you had your fun
Thirteen years, a loaded gun
Pulled the trigger just for fun
In the night, the sound of your voice
Saying things you never meant
Like I had a choice
Our bed in San Diego turned
Me to a ghost
I lost my body to a boy
I loved the most
Said you'd dreamed it for so long
But your touch, your lust, your heart - were all wrong
You moved too quick, you moved too hard
Left your mark, a memory scarred
Now you're gone, with someone new
A child born, a lie or two
But when you drink, I hope you see
The boy you broke inside of me
Our bed in San Diego turned
Me to a ghost
I lost my body to a boy
I loved the most
Said you'd dreamed it for so long
But your touch, your lust, your heart - were all wrong
You took your fill, more than I knew
In that bed, I was something to use
In San Diego, everything died
You left a wound where the Pacific tide
Used to wash away all sin
But you're a scar beneath my skin
In the night, the sound of your voice
Saying things you never meant
Like I had a choice