Next To Me

You prolly wish I needed you

Its tempting but you need the truth

Without the worry of you leaving

Now I'm never feeling blue

Livings not appealing, true

But I be taking scenic routes

I can't deny to truly feel alive

I have to see it through

The dreams I have to claim

Built from every step I take

So I become an addict

Living for the rush I feel, like Novocain

Forgive myself for past mistakes

And feelings of dismay

All missteps I take still moving forward

And look how far I came

Yeah, you wish that you knew me

Hell, I live for new me

Taking all the punches I've been thrown

From those who tried to screw me

But it's just my routine

Living life in tunes sweet

It empowers, I feel groovy

It grew me

Taught me every bit of pain

Will just fade away

I'll be what remains

Proving every day

Everything's ok

What is there to say?

Would be better if you stayed

Then this melody would never echo in your brain

And it goes

Want you here beside me

Watching you walk out

The hope I have inside me

Drowns out all the doubt

I don't know what to tell you

My minds been on a break

The past helped me decide

That my future cannot wait

And though it hurts to love you

It would kill to have you hate me

So I forgive all the broken

Promises you made me

My mind may feel divided

But my heart is flying free

Won't wait till you decide

I want you right here next to me

And here we go again, with you tryna make amends

Never wished that you were dead, just the voices in my head

They were always better friends, they were always making sense

When you walking down that tight rope, you know you might choke

And so I hope for light jokes and high tokes

To never see a barrel wear the white smoke

When raw emotion dries throats, leaving peoples eyes soaked

Never see you cry, though

You promise me you'll try and stick around

Fine but I won't

I'm tired of these games

Coz they all end the same

With my heart or my wrists or my brain

Left engulfed in the pain

That you left in your wake

So I won't play the dame

And the hope I'll reclaim

And remake

You taught me every bit of pain

Will just fade away

I'll be what remains

Proving every day

Everything's ok

What is there to say?

Would be better if you stayed

Then this melody would never echo in your brain

And it goes

Want you here beside me

Watching you walk out

The hope I have inside me

Drowns out all the doubt

I don't know what to tell you

My minds been on a break

The past helped me decide

That my future cannot wait

And though it hurts to love you

It would kill to have you hate me

So I forgive all the broken

Promises you made me

My mind may feel divided

But my heart is flying free

Won't wait till you decide

I want you right here next to me

And though it hurts to love you

It would kill to have me hate

So I forgive all of the broken

Promises you made

My mind may feel divided

But my heart is flying free

Won't wait till you've decided

You wish you were next to me