Existential Fears

(Rain Sounds)

(Children playing)

All these Existential Fears, I been feeling hopeless

Airpods in, I'm laying down and drowning in Frank Ocean

Can't find relief, I'm tryna find my piece, but I'm still searching

All this pressure on me, and I'm hoping that no one sees me hurtin'

Coming clean about the things I thought could not ever come out of me

And I know that there's people proud of me, but I'm not proud of me

Every time I get success or have a win, turn around and see

Nobody standing behind me, I guess alone is how I'm bound to be

Cuz I been through a lot, hardly anyone standing next to me

I used to have someone but now she's gone. She took the best of me

And sometimes, really, I wonder what I got left in me

Cuz the man I saw in the mirror when I started even left from me

That's why I wrote the album, to show 'em what I'm made of

To show 'em what I came out of, to show 'em where I came from

All my life I've felt like nobody, and nobody ever gave a-

But this nobody never gave up, knowing that one day I'd be paid up

These Existential Fears are closing in and it's depressin'

"Will I ever Be Somebody?" "Will I ever find connection?"

"For God's sake!" "Why do I feel this way?"

"Why am I the outcast? And why does knowledge come with weight?"

(Damn)

Living fast I lost it all cuz I refused to hit the brakes

Why does my heart hurt so fucking much when it breaks?

Countless nights I stayed up cuz I was working toward my gains

Then everything that I had it went to waste

All of my life I've felt alone

None of my life have I belonged

All of my life I've tried to do right

But it turns out every time I'm wrong

And I feel like nobody really fucks with me, I think I'm misunderstood

But I've got small eyes looking up to me

So I know that I've gotta do good

And I think my heart's too fucking big

I think I care too much

You'd think it'd harden - but no. God when have I had enough?

Between a blessing and a curse it's like I'm fucking stuck