Rivilin - Burn Notice (Official Lyric Video)

I know anxiety lives in me

If I stay here will I lose my mind

I think I've already passed that time

Plagued by derealization feel like

I'm looking through a fucking glass

Feel like this ain't my body I'm just

In a dream will death wake me up

These drugs no they don't mean

Shit when this body doesn't feel even real

Can't keep up a fucking job it

Feels like I'm just blessed with bad luck

Try to explain it to someone but they don't understand

Like why can't I be normal for a second so I can feel human

My body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around

Convinced these shadows on the

Walls are out for me till I'm the ground

Take a step back id like to realize

That I'm ok it's just my perspective

It cus feels like I'm living in my skull like

Nothing is real and this is all a dream

Till I take my life and I wake up

Maybe then ill be happy in this place

My psychologist doesn't get it

No amount of therapy can change what I feel

I tell my mother that I'm ok

That I'm just going through a rough patch

This is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that I'm fine

Floating above this city

If I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up

To me, this place isn't pretty

I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide's not enough

There's a constant battle in me

Gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide

With the concrete end it quickly

My eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Every time I die I wake up

Every time I die I

This time I'm just fine running away

And I'd sell my soul just to better the days

I never get a hold of this, I throw it away

I never know what to say, I make the same old mistakes

I been playing in traffic with my emotions and

I'm closer to a rope than I been in a fucking minute, oh

Every time I think I'm getting better, I end up fucking sendin'

Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning tho

Can't sleep and I can't wake up

"Life's tough, get a helmet and, shit, man up"

I been stuck and I'm spinning my tires up in the mud

Going nowhere fast, the ash floating over the sun

My body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around

Convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me

Till I'm in the ground

Take a step back id like to realize

That I'm ok it's just my perspective

It cus feels like I'm living in my skull

Like nothing is real and this is all a dream

Till I take my life and I wake up

Maybe then ill be happy in this place

My psychologist doesn't get it

No amount of therapy can change what I feel

I tell my mother that I'm ok, that

I'm just going through a rough patch

This is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that I'm fine

Floating above this city

If I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up

To me, this place isn't pretty

I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide's not enough

There's a constant battle in me

Gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide

With the concrete end it quickly

My eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up