Burden

I've been looking for yeah, I've been searching

Just wanna talk a while, I don't wanna burden you with

The pain I feel, yeah, I've been hurting

When I'm not with you, I don't feel like I'm a person no more

Just a ghost now, just a ghost now

My home is lonely, and it's looking like a ghost town

I don't feel like this is real life

Gotta tell me straight, what's the deal? I

Never knew what commitment meant

Now I'm here tryna fix this mess

Every night I close my eyes

And I pretend that you're in this bed

You swear to God that I'm unfaithful I swear to God that I am

That's a lot of swearing, that's why I'm cursed

But I deserve it because

Back before you, I wasn't a perfect person

And I can see why you would think I'd do you dirty

I've earned that reputation, I've burned that many bridges

I know I've learned my lesson It hurt me when I did it

We don't talk, I think you changed your number

The last we saw each other, I can't really remember

I was mistaken when I said it would get better

Now I'm sitting here in limbo

But I know I'll wait forever

I've been looking for ya, yeah, I've been searching

Just wanna talk a while, I don't wanna burden you with

The pain I feel, yeah, I've been hurting

Man I'm not with you, I don't feel like I'm a person no more

And I pray that she might call back

While I'm sitting in an empty room

Staring at a blank TV, a cigarette burns

And I sit and reminisce about you

About your truth and about your lies

If you were the kid, you would be here now

But instead I am trapped in a room by my goddamn self

And I'm praying that I might get out

But I know that I can, I know that I won't

Say what you feel, but I know you don't

You can take my life, you can break my heart

But I swear this time, this time I'm gone

I just came to talk, but you hung up

I guess everything, it just ain't enough