I'm Not Them

You wore their lies like second skin

Slipped out quiet, let them in

You say you're done, but still go back

Chasing echoes down the cracks

I laughed on cue, just like they do

I change myself to be your truth

Maybe if I fit just right

You'd hold me without a fight

I'm not them, but would you soften?

Would the rage just stop, would the silence blossom?

If I looked like the ones you chase and crave

Would you finally let me stay?

I try so hard to wear their skin

Just to feel your love begin

You flinch when I get too close

Like someone else's ghost still owns the ropes

You say it's me you want today

But your eyes keep drifting where they used to stay

I keep their shadows by the door

Hoping maybe love remembers more

Every smile you fake for me

Feels like echoed memory

I'm not them, but would you soften?

Would the storm die down, would the hurt be forgotten?

If I played the part just right

Could I hold what they leave each night?

I try so hard to wear their skin

But I know now love shouldn't hurt to win

I dressed myself in what they crave

Caught your gaze like I wasn't there

I break myself to make you stay

But nothing I give takes their place away

I tell myself it's not too late

But I'm turning into their design

And I wonder if you'd break for me

If I bled their identity

I'm not them, but would I be enough?

Or would love still feel this rough?

I see the damage they left behind

And try to heal it with what's mine

I try so hard to wear their skin

But I was always enough.