Heavy Days

I wake up feelin' colder

Mirror says I'm gettin' older

Pillow talks in empty tones

No one texts, I'm all alone

Heart feels like it's underwater

Thoughts too loud, but never louder

Tryna fake a smile at dawn

But it fades before it's gone

They say "you'll be fine in time"

But I've been stuck behind the line

My mind's a storm I can't outrun

And I don't see no rising sun

I'm fallin' through these heavy days

Tryna breathe in darker haze

Sleep don't help, I dream in grey

Wish this pain would drift away

I'm fallin' through these heavy days

Tryna smile but can't explain

If I vanish, would they stay?

Or forget me anyway?

Counting stars on my ceiling

Hide my phone, avoid the feeling

Friends check in, I say I'm fine

But they don't see the warning signs

Music loud to drown my mind

But silence creeps in every time

If I scream, will someone care?

Or am I just floating in air?

I'm fallin' through these heavy days

Tryna breathe in darker haze

Sleep don't help, I dream in grey

Wish this pain would drift away

I'm fallin' through these heavy days

Tryna smile but can't explain

If I vanish, would they stay?

Or forget me anyway?

Don't tell me "it gets better"

'Cause this weight just grows forever

Smiles fake, but tears are real

And I forgot how joy should feel