ONTO ME

I remember nights sleeping awake

Ceiling fan spinning, thoughts circling space

You told me slow down, said I dream too loud

So I learned how to nod while I tuned you out

I was running on hope and adrenaline

Living off promises I kept telling myself again

I wore all the pressure like it was fine

Funny how cracks show when you're running out of time

I got lost trying to quiet my head

Too self-aware to sleep, but still in bed

I reached for escape just to feel okay

Turns out numbing the pain just taught it to stay

I was drifting, drifting in my head

Seeing stars just to feel instead

I was drifting, drifting way too far

Lost in space, yeah, chasing stars

Now I'm back down, back down on my feet

I'm onto me, yeah, I'm onto me

Yeah, I'm back down, back down on my feet

I'm onto me, yeah, I'm onto me

I disappeared, nobody checked

Guess being quiet makes you easy to forget

I learned who stays when the lights go out

And who only loved me when I was down

I used to confuse being lost with being free

Thought chaos was something that looked like me

Now peace feels strange but it fits just right

But chasing storms make you feel alive

I don't drift where I lose my sense

I don't romanticize the damage

I survived nights I don't even say

That's why I move this way

I was drifting, drifting in my head

Seeing stars just to feel instead

I was drifting, drifting way too far

Lost in space, yeah, chasing stars

Now I'm back down, back down on my feet

I'm onto me, yeah, I'm onto me

Yeah, I'm back down, back down on my feet

I'm onto me, yeah, I'm onto me

I don't hate who I used to be

He made mistakes so I could leave

I stopped searching the sky for proof —

I'm standing here now