Metamorphosis

Change the system

Break my back and then my four limbs

A new perspective

A metamorphosis

Sometimes I lose all sense of direction

Wish I were more driven

Wish I were steadfast in decisions

Decisive and ready

To make change in my daily routine

And I could just hold

My head down and cry

Wish it were that easy

But I was raised to be strong

By four gentle hands

And not anything weak

Raise the ceiling

I fear I'm getting spread too thin

In all directions

The cost of curiosity

Sometimes I lose all of my motivation

Wish I were more patient

Wish I could put to rest all my worries

But they'd manifest as the pain in my joints

And I know

That one day I'll find

That all of this stress was all unjustified

With purpose that I may find

Serves to protect me from body and mind

But isn't it a shame?

Biting my tongue til I cave

Losing my taste

And saving my words

Just to say

"All I could do

All I could try

Is suture together the two halves of my mind

All that I know

Is all that I am

Piece them together like parts of a plan

All that I say

Is all that I do

Well, we wouldn't be here if that much were true

I promise to make

A change in my time

I'll stick to my words like the specks in the night"

Won't make an oath

And break it

I'll find my way out of this

Mess that I made

And I'll stay

True to my bonds

I'll spit on my palm

I swear that it's real this time

Look, you can shake it

And no, I won't fake it

So I'll

Change the pattern

Make a dent in my daily routine