Ice Queen

I was blowing up your phone

Like I was looking for coke to score

While I drove through Payson, Arizona

In three feet of snow

You asked me if I was doing okay

And I lied and said that I was doing better

I hadn't spoken to you in some time

But somehow you knew

I was in the middle of a winter storm

And to keep me from drifting

Too far away in my mind

You asked me how I felt

About hot air balloons

If you weren't building a life

With a good man

I would have driven

The ten hours to get to you

The way I used to

Back when we were young

With so much hope

So much resilience

But instead I drove on

Towards New Mexico

And later Oklahoma

All the while thinking about

How hard I fell for you

Back when there was

Still something in me

Capable of falling

I fell for you like a toy

From a sleeping child's hand

I fell for you like a plum

Heavy with the summer's sweetness

I fell for you like an icicle

Made brittle by its crying

I fell for you like dylan

And that girl from the north country fair

I fell for you like a hot air balloon

Starved of its heat

Casting a single shadow

Over albuquerque

And then descending

As if the city below

Had removed her clothes

Bared her breasts

Spread her legs

And then killed the lights