My Oeauxldest Secret (Redacted)

Facing directly opposite the toilet

With my shorts on

And he would rub his erect penis

On my buttocks up and down

Until he ejaculated on to my shorts

He would then make me change my shorts

I presume now to stuff

Them into the washing machine

He called this "THE GAME"

His name would be DIMITRIUS

And my name would be LAYLA

I have lost count

Of how many times this happened

But it was so frequent

For the duration of us living at

It had gotten to a point

Where he would inflate two balloons

For me to stuff up my t-shirt

To simulate breasts

I do not know how this

"Game" even started

But only as an adult many

Many years later did I come

To realise what had actually happened to me

Despite moving to

I'm unable to currently

Recall the door number

But it was

And afterwards, then to

And then to

And then to

Before finally relocating back to

Manchester

I do not recall if this

"GAME" was ever played

At any one of these other

Addresses that we had lived at

In the event is confronted

With my recollection of these events

That I have described here

And he denies it

Then, will I consider making this public

I.E, reporting him

For sexual abuse on

Me as a child when he himself

Couldn't have been older

Than fifteen years of age

When he did this to me

And at the point of writing

I was in a clear state of mind

I was not, nor do

I consume any intoxicants

And I was not under

The influence of any narcotics

Banned substances

Nor was I under

Any duress to write this account

I have simply used

My spare time alone

To gather myself together

To detail this abuse at the hands of

In sharing my truth

I have released a heavy burden

And to some degree

This has been therapeutic

For me to finally write down

All that I can remember

That which I have kept

A secret for so long

I have no such motivations

Or feelings of spite to shame

For what he has done to me

If he is ever confronted

With my account

And he denies these ugly truths

Then he is solely accountable

For the potential damage

That I can imagine

This will cause him, his wife

His children and his extended family

If I were to make this statement public

Furthermore

I will not be made out to be a liar

And allow myself to remain a victim

He has the opportunity

To be man enough to admit his guilt

Or be a coward and lie

In him lying about this will it prompt me

To consider making this statement public

And report him to the police if needed

For physical identification purposes

By appearance is

Looking, ie

Etc, in skin tone

He has

With some

And or

That he usually keeps

Very

Or

All over

He's around

With A

Build

And has

And or

I believe he has also legally

Changed his birth name from

And he also goes by the nicknames of

Or

I do not know where in the city

He lives but I'm sure that won't be

An issue should this document

Be submitted to the police

Or made public etc

All praises be to Allah

My name is Billal

And this is my oldest secret